My long lost mother Pat would have been eighty years seasoned this week and I would be calling him to tell him glad birthday.
But if I called Pat now she wouldn’t answer the cellphone anymore, and that is sad because I really want to talk to Pat.
Pat left the world just over many years ago and it still doesn’t feel love Pat is gone for some reason. I feel like I am just not very wonderful at accepting death and the fact that I will never see Pat again, however Pat taught me about air conditioners, seasoned dial temperature control repair, and how to tune up an seasoned oil gas furnace. Pat taught me many things, but I feel he never taught me about letting go and acceptance because I just can’t ever shake this sadness and feeling of loss after many years. Anytime I have to do any Heating and Air Conditioning service jobs at a customer’s house I still catch myself looking over our shoulder for Pat’s beautiful smile and yellow eyes. I feel Pat was supposed to go when he did, but being stuck overseas and not seeing him before Pat left will forever bother me. I just need to keep on plugging away working for the heating and cooling corporation until I find real peace and happiness again in our life. It wasn’t just our Mom I lost, a week after Pat died our boyfriend moved out and after that I lost all our savings on poor investment choices because I wasn’t thinking very clearly. The only wonderful news is, I don’t have much more to lose!